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25 June 2011 @ 07:47 am
Because Love Is Not Always With Flowers 2/2  


Jaejoong huffed. It had been almost two month he woke up without his love beside him. This past month Yunho will always fell asleep in his work room or living room. No stories before they go to sleep. No cuddled before he close his eyes. No night kisses. No morning kisses. Let alone sweet love-making.

Jaejoong missed his husband crazily. Nowadays his Yunho always prefer to sleep and spending time with his works instead of him, his spouse. Yunho even didn’t have time to watch movies on Friday night with him.

Jaejoong sighed. He took his phone on the table beside his bed and looked at the screen. Picture of Yunho—kissed by him while smiling widely. He smiled over the beautiful picture before him. He missed his quality time with Yunho. A single tear escaped from his eye and immediately wiped by him. He took Yunho’s pillow and sniffed the smell. Yunho’s masculine smell. He buried his face on the pillow then got up from bed.

Baby, I’m sorry I didn’t wake you up. I’ve to go quickly to the office this morning.

Jaejoong found the note attached on the refrigerator. He took it from there, tore it, and threw it into the dustbin. “He didn’t even say he loves me.” He mumbled to himself.

He opened the refrigerator and took out a carton of milk, then closed it rather rough. He went to the living room and sat on the couch. He turned on the TV, but God knew he didn’t even watch one of the programs.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

“Hello there, my bro-in-law~”

“Your bro-in-law is actually your brother’s work. I’m no longer his!” Jaejoong spatted the words while forcefully threw a bundle of papers on Changmin’s desk.

Changmin furrowed his eyebrows and got up from his seat. “Hey Jae~ what happened between you and hyung?”

Jaejoong bowed his head and whispered. “He’s no longer my Yunho I’ve ever knew.”

Changmin sat down beside his best friend. “Why?”

“I don’t know. It’s just. I think he doesn’t love me anymore, Min.”

“What? How can you think like that, Jae?”

Jaejoong looked at Changmin. “He has changed, Min.”

“Changed into what? Like what?”

“He put me on the second place in his life. I’m no longer his first priority. He even rare to say he loves me nowadays.”

Changmin put his hand on Jaejoong’s back. “Jae, you can’t think that my hyung doesn’t love you anymore just because of that. Maybe he’s busy with his work.”


Changmin sighed and hold his friend’s trembled body. He felt wet on his left shoulder.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Yunho opened his house’s door weakly. He didn’t care to turn on the light. He walked to the living room and sat on the couch.

The annoying picture appeared before him. He sighed and messed his hair, breathed in and out slowly. He closed his tired eyes and tried to sleep for awhile.


A little light was seen from the door. Yunho opened his eyes, knew who’ve opened his house’s door.

“I’m ba …”

“Where did you go?” Yunho calmed his breath.


No answer came from the other man.

“Where did you go this whole day, Jae?” Yunho got up from the couch and looked at his love.
Jaejoong looked at him back, but he still didn’t answer the question.

“I’m tired.” Jaejoong walked away from Yunho.

Yunho furrowed his eyebrows and grabbed Jaejoong’s hand. “Kim Jaejoong!”


“Why did you speak loud to your husband?”

Jaejoong glared at him.


Yunho smirked. “What did you do with my brother?” His jealousy blurted out.

“I don’t understand you.” Jaejoong narrowed his eyes.

“Do you love my brother, Jaejoong?”

Jaejoong opened his mouth in shock. “What? Are you crazy? What do you mean by that?”

“I saw you held him in his office.”

Jaejoong chuckled. “He just wanted to calm me down.”

“Am I not enough for you? Why you searched another man to calm yourself?”

“Like you ever there for me to calm myself~” Jaejoong said weakly.



Yunho sighed. “What did Changmin give you to make you furious like this?”

“GOD! Yunho! Changmin has no relation to this mess between us for God’s sake! It’s all about you!”


Jaejoong nodded. “Yes! You better do introspection to yourself. Don’t get your own brother into this problem.”


“Or else, do you have someone else, Jung Yunho? Cause I heard if someone accuses his or her partner for having an affair, actually that someone who has it and wants to break up with the partner.”

“Are you out of your mind, Jae? Where did you get that bullshit from?”

Jaejoong sighed heavily. “I’m tired, Yunho.”


“I want us to divorce.”

Yunho felt a sword stabbed him, all over his body. He felt sting on his eyes. He then breathed in deeply and out slowly.

“What can I do to change your mind, Jae?”

Jaejoong looked at Yunho’s eyes deeply. “I have one question. If you find the right answer, perhaps you can change my mind~”

“What is it?”

“If I want a very beautiful flower over the mountain—and we both knew that if you climb that mountain you’ll die. Do you still want to get it for me?”

“I’ll give you the answer tomorrow.”

Jaejoong felt depressed to hear his husband’s reaction. But he then left Yunho there, and walked to their room.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥


The work room felt so quiet. Actually it was always like that, now it felt quieter and colder. Yunho turned off the light intentionally. The light came only from his computer. He busied himself. He wanted to forget what happened between Jaejoong and him just then. He wanted to not believe what Jaejoong said to him before.

He opened the game’s folder, Jaejoong’s and his favorite one. Angry birds. How Yunho missed his time with Jaejoong playing this game. He started to play. GOD! His chest was in pain. Jaejoong’s face always appeared before him, mocking his stupid jealousy.

“What should I do?”

Suddenly he remembered the question Jaejoong gave him. He tried to calm himself, took a paper and a pen on the desk and began to write the answer.

My love … I …

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Yunho looked at his watch. It was ten o’clock in the morning. He went to their room and looked for his spouse. The love of his life was still sleeping soundly on their bed. Jaejoong’s eyes looked puffy. Yunho guessed that his love was crying last night.

He sat in the edge of the bed and looked at his beautiful angel. He stroked Jaejoong’s hair softly, leaned down, and kissed the lips.

“I love you, sweetheart. Will you forgive me?” he whispered.

He went out of the room and after few minutes he came back with a cup of warm chamomile tea and a letter. He took those on the table beside the bed.

He once again left the room and went to kitchen. He wore Jaejoong’s red apron and prepared some ingredient from the cupboard and refrigerator. He began to cook for the very first time in his and Jaejoong’s marriage life.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Jaejoong woke up. Again, he woke up alone on his bed. He felt like getting a hangover. He felt so heavy even just to open his eyes. Yet he still brought his body to sit down for awhile, for calming his heart and his head.

He found a cup of chamomile tea on the table. He sipped the tea a little and felt the warm and sweet sensation in his throat. Then he looked at the white envelope and took it from the table. He opened the envelope and the folded paper. It was a letter, with Yunho’s beautiful hand-writing on it, and began to read he did.

Jung-Kim Jaejoong, My love …
I won’t get that beautiful flower for you, but please, let me explain the reasons to you.

That very first sentence broke my heart into pieces, but still I read the continuation.

Sweetheart …
You usually use your notebook and always find problems with it and in the end you can just cry in front of your notebook. 
I have to give my fingers to fix it for you and to wipe your tears away from your beautiful face.

You sometime forgot to bring our house’s key with you.
I have to give my foot to break the door so you can enter the house and rest.

You love to go shopping with your friends or with Junsu and Yoochun.
I have to give my hands to massage your sprained feet.

You’re a person who prefers to stay home.
I feel worried, I’m afraid you’ll become ‘weird’.
So I have to think the way how to keep you accompanied by buying you something or lend my tongue to tell you interesting and funny stories I had.

You always work in front of you notebook for hours and it isn’t good for your eyesight.
I have to keep my eyes healthy so when we grow old I still can help you to cut your nails or to take off your gray hairs. These hands of mine will hold yours, guide you walk at the beach, enjoy the beautiful sunrise and sands. This mouth of mine will tell you the colorful flowers which are shining and gorgeous like you.

But, love … 
I won’t get that beautiful flower over the mountain for you to die.
Because I can’t see your tears. You, crying over my death.

The love of my life …
I know there are a lot of person that can give you love more than I can.
So, love, if all of things that I’ve ever given to you with my hands, foot, eyes, heart, are not enough for you, I can’t bind you to search them from the other hands, foot, eyes, hearts.

Jaejoong’s tears fell upon the letter and blurred the ink on it. He continued to read the letter. He wanted to finish reading the answer from his Yunho.

And now, love, if you’ve finished reading my reasons and want me to stay with you, please open the door. I’ve been waiting for you here, standing in front of our home, waiting for your answer.
But, if this letter disappointed you, let me in, I’ll pack my clothes and go from you. I won’t bother your life ever again.
Believe me, baby. Your happiness is mine too.

Jaejoong got up from the bed and ran to the front door. He saw Yunho smiled while bringing a plate of tuna sandwich and a carton of vanilla milk. Jaejoong’s favorite. He threw the letter and jumped to hold Yunho tightly. He hugged Yunho’s neck and kissed any skins he could reach.

“I’m sorry, baby. Sorry~ I’m terribly sorry.”

Yunho smiled on his beloved’s shoulder. He felt extremely happy to know he still could live, breath, love, with his Jung-Kim Jaejoong.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Both of them fell onto their bed with Yunho on top of Jaejoong. He looked at Jaejoong’s face lovingly and stroked the hair softly. He leaned down and sucked Jaejoong’s upper lip gently then did the same to the lower one. 

“Don’t ever dare think to leave me, baby.” He whispered on Jaejoong’s petals, then dived in again. “I can’t even imagine how to live without you beside me.”

Jaejoong clung to Yunho’s neck and kissed him like tomorrow never come. But Yunho’s lips suddenly left his.

“Can you promise that, baby?” Yunho asked. Couple tears fell from his eyes and wetted Jaejoong’s cheek.

Jaejoong’s eyes became watery. He wiped Yunho’s tears gently from his spouse’s handsome face. He smiled and nodded eagerly. “I promise.”

Yunho then pulled Jaejoong closer to him and put his lips on Jaejoong’s. Jaejoong closed his eyes, enjoying the kiss. He chewed Yunho’s lower lip. Yunho deepen the kiss, he licked Jaejoong’s red pouty lips and sucked it. 

Jaejoong sighed, Yunho increasingly deepen the kiss. Yunho’s lips moved through Jaejoong’s sensitive parts. He licked Jaejoong’s earlobes, and moved to his necks and left beautiful red love marks there. He put his hand in Jaejoong’s white shirt, and then gently stroked Jaejoong’s nipples with his thumb.


Yunho slowly opened Jaejoong’s shirt, as well as pants and boxer. He saw Jaejoong still close his eyes. Jaejoong’s flushed cheeks made him more beautiful in Yunho’s eyes. Yunho then back devouring his spouse’s lips, sucked it, licked it, and occasionally bite it. Jaejoong took the opportunity to do what Yunho had done to him. He opened all of Yunho’s clothes.

Jaejoong turned their position, making he was on top of Yunho. "My turn, baby." He said, smiled to Yunho gorgeously. 

Jaejoong deliciously devoured Yunho’s lower lip, for some reason he really liked this part of his husband’s body. He thought that it was the most beautiful part of Yunho. 

"Ouch, Joongie!"

"I’m sorry, darling. I didn’t do it intentionally." Jaejoong said worriedly then licked the blood away from Yunho’s lip.

Jaejoong’s kisses moved to Yunho’s ears, down to neck, to his shoulders, down to Yunho’s both nipple, his chest, then to Yunho’s flat stomach. Jaejoong left many red marks there. He paused for a moment when he almost reached Yunho’s member. He then licked the tip.

Yunho groaned shamelessly.

Jaejoong showered Yunho’s member with his sweet kisses and mind-blowing licks. Yunho moaned because of those acts.

Yunho pulled Jaejoong upward and reversed their position. He stared at Jaejoong's beautiful face as he caught his breath. "I can’t wait, baby. Let me make love to you." He said as pressed his lips on Jaejoong’s.

“Me either. So make love to me, baby.” Jaejoong smiled while cupping Yunho’s face. “I missed this.”

Yunho smiled too, then he kissed Jaejoong’s forehead. "All right. Let me prepared you first."

Yunho inserted a finger into Jaejoong’s opening, followed by the other fingers after that.


Jaejoong strongly squeezed the sheets under him with both hands. He closed his eyes tightly.

"Are you okay, sweetheart?" Yunho asked, his fingers stopped working inside Jaejoong.

Jaejoong shook his head. "I'm okay. It’s just … It’s been a long time we didn’t do this."

Yunho chuckled and smacked Jaejoong’s lips with his. “I’m sorry. I’ll make up for those lost love-making today.”

“Oh God! This will be a long day for us.” Jaejoong said lowly.

They laughed over that. And then Yunho back to his handjob. After he was convinced that Jaejoong had relaxed with his finger, he prepared his own member in front of Jaejoong’s opening. He quickly put his member inside of his love.

They both groaned by Yunho’s act. Yunho saw Jaejoong bit his lower lip. He sure that his spouse was in pain. Yunho fastened the movements so the pain that Jaejoong felt can be reduced. 

“Baby. There … almost there.”

Yunho moved faster. He held Jaejoong’s waist and buried his face on Jaejoong’s neck. “I’m almost there, baby.” Yunho whispered into his love’s ear.

And they came together not long after that. Yunho kissed Jaejoong’s lips lovingly. “I love you. I’m so sorry for what happened between us.”

Jaejoong hugged Yunho’s chest and snuggled closer. “Me too, baby. Forgive me for doubting your love for me.”

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Yunho was woken up by the ringing sound from Jaejoong’s phone. He left Jaejoong for awhile to take the phone, then back as soon as possible. He unlocked the phone and saw a reminder on its screen.

“Ah! I almost forgot what date today is!”

He stopped the ringing sound and leaned back to his pillow. He faced Jaejoong, enjoying the beautiful creature before him. He felt so lucky to have him for himself.

He stroked Jaejoong’s cheeks softly, pinched the cute pointy nose playfully, poke the heavenly petals while giggling.

Jaejoong opened his eyes to see Yunho smile at him sweetly. He also smiled, brought Yunho’s hand in his and kissed the palm.

“Morning, baby.” Yunho greeted him.

“Morniiiiing~ it’s good to see you beside me when I woke up.” Jaejoong played with Yunho’s fingers and kissed them one by one. “Hmm~ I love your fingers.”

“Happy fourth anniversary, my Jung-Kim Jaejoongie.” Yunho suddenly blurted out.

Jaejoong widened his eyes. “Ei? Today is the D Day, baby?”

Yunho nodded. “Now, tell me, what does my sweetheart want to do for our anniversary.”

Jaejoong bit his lower lip. “Errmm~ Just stay with you along day … on this bed.”

Yunho laughed. “Oh God! This will be a longer day for us.”

“Yunhooooo~ but you promise to make up for our lost …”

Yunho shut Jaejoong’s mouth by kissing him and got on top of him. “Okay then. I’ll grant your request.”

♥ END ♥

How's it? I hope you enjoy reading this fic like I enjoyed writing this :p thank you for 
[info]jaejoongah  and  [info]moon1084 unnies for making and sponsoring the contest :D and thank you for everyone who has voted for my fic, love you all~ *gave you all BIG BIG HUGS* :3 Yunjae mansaaeeeeehhhh!!! ♥♥♥♥♥


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noonchanooncha on June 29th, 2011 02:00 am (UTC)
you voted for this?
hyaaaaa~ thank you so much dear~ /huggles
glad to know that you enjoyed the story :3
ve_mioneve_mione on June 25th, 2011 03:38 am (UTC)
I don't know how to vote but I'd vote in your fic for sure! really sweet I even cryed with the letter
noonchanooncha on June 29th, 2011 02:07 am (UTC)
aigoo~ am sorry *wipe yer tears*
yer comment is sweet too~
thank you :3
keeaneegankeeaneegan on June 25th, 2011 03:38 am (UTC)
OMGSUN! yunho's answer, so sweet ♥♥♥♥
noonchanooncha on June 29th, 2011 02:09 am (UTC)
sweet-hubby!yunho is sweeett~
and when it comes to JJ,you can multiple the sweetness of him~ X'D
suejaesuejae on June 25th, 2011 04:44 am (UTC)
the letter was the sweetest love letter ever!!

lovely fic!!
noonchanooncha on June 29th, 2011 02:11 am (UTC)
thank youuuu~
glad you enjoyed the story /huggles ♥
mycheesycakemycheesycake on June 25th, 2011 05:55 am (UTC)
aw~ this...i can't even...this is so...i love this! ♥
noonchanooncha on June 29th, 2011 02:12 am (UTC)
thank you for loving this bb~ /huggles ♥
『The Indestructible World Commentator™』rennonyanyan on June 25th, 2011 10:16 am (UTC)
Did i say that i heart the angry birds part? XD congrats for winning dear. I'm so proud. You really have to write more! And thanks for entrusted me in beta-ing. I enjoyed it sfm<333 :)
noonchanooncha on June 29th, 2011 02:14 am (UTC)
OMO! nyaaaan~ I forgot to make a spot for ya ;_______;
you heart the angry birds part? really? hyaaaaa~ am so happy ♥♥♥♥♥
thank you for betaing this fic nyan~
glad to know that you enjoyed this too~ :3
love ya, love ya, love yaaaa~ ♥♥♥♥♥
agnexiahagnes28 on June 25th, 2011 10:49 am (UTC)
aaaaahh this is nice XD
love this fic..
noonchanooncha on June 29th, 2011 02:15 am (UTC)
thank you for loving this~ /huggles :3
ruby_yuri91ruby_yuri91 on June 25th, 2011 02:38 pm (UTC)
yunho's answer is so sweet! <3
aww... love this~~
noonchanooncha on June 29th, 2011 02:16 am (UTC)
he really is sweet indeed~ X'D
thank you for loving this /huggles ♥
akuiakuakuiaku on June 30th, 2011 04:44 am (UTC)
That stupid jung T_T
Didn't he missed jae too that time they couldn't be together???
They hardly had time together n yet all of the people he got jealous with his own brother???
Som1 pliz smack him on the head OTL
But jae is as cute as ever<333
love this!!!! :D
noonchanooncha on July 11th, 2011 02:03 am (UTC)
haha~ please don't be mad at him~ he's just being tired from all of the works~ :D
and yeah~ cutey!jae is so squissshhyyyyy~ ♥♥♥♥♥
thank youuuu~ X'D
tanya_h24: jj 5tanya_h24 on July 10th, 2011 05:29 pm (UTC)
omg major fluff xD
love it, though :3
tanya_h24: jj 3tanya_h24 on July 10th, 2011 05:32 pm (UTC)
ah, i just realized, u're an indonesian too!
hi there~ *waves* :DD
noonchanooncha on July 11th, 2011 02:09 am (UTC)
thank you for loving it bb~ :D
and ya,aku orang indonesia juga~ \(^o^)/
banyak banget ya orang indonesia yang berkeliaran di LJ~ :D
tinggal di jakarta juga?
tanya_h24: smiling jjtanya_h24 on July 11th, 2011 04:49 am (UTC)
ak br ktm bbrp org indo, ga byk, hehe
iya, km jg? :D
noonchanooncha on July 11th, 2011 06:12 am (UTC)
author2 yunjae ff banyak juga loh yang orang indonesia :)
iya,di jakarta juga~ ^o^